If You Leave

“If you leave, when I go. You’ll find me in the shallows”

I don’t think I’ve been this homesick since the year started. All I want to do is go home. Maybe it’s because I did not spend enough time there during Spring Break, or because I realized I can’t go home for four more weeks. But I just really want to go home. However, the fact that I got involved in a number of clubs and student runs organisations, along with the fact that most of my classes are all about doing group projects. I found myself stuck here until April 12th or 19th, that’s if I’m lucky.

When I look at the list of things I need to do this upcoming week, I want to dig a hole, crawl in it and fall asleep until it’s all over. Buuuut nothing is this easy. So I am here, drowning in homework and rehearsal times.

We are going to start the poetry pole in Creative Writing. To say that is intimidating would be a great understatement. I also have a persuasive speech to give on Wednesday and guess what? I still don’t know what to do it on! YAY! Adding to that a project and a presentation, make up classes, extra rehearsals, community service and Talent Show auditions. If you look for me, you’ll find me confined in some corner trying , and failing, to procrastinate. I will probably need someone to remind me to breathe every other hour. Anyone who knows me knows that I am not the best at dealing with stress.

I have the feeling I will be listening to a lot of Daughter this week, so I’m leaving you with this YouTube playlist of the new album. It usually makes me feel like someone took my heart out, cut it into little pieces and stomped on it then put it back in my chest, but it calms me down. I hope it’s nothing as such for you.

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